making a post after a long time.

Friday 15/2
Participate at chingay preview with diva. fun n tiring experience. reached home 1am with a taxi fair of $16.20

Saturday 16/2
Participate at the actual chingay with diva again. i was not dancing all la. i was pushing the silver chariot, its a heavy n large chariot which is treated like god. so yea, tis time ended early. so i walk from farer park mrt to the little india mrt, a very very long walk dam fast. than i saw my bus, i dashed through the traffic light n to the bus stop. made it. a bus ride home. =)

Tuesday 19/2
Got my posting. well, i wasnt posted anywhere. yes. my JPSAE did not work. so i have no skool to go. well, there is DAE on Feb 28. i tink i might go MDIS. i was suppose to discuss it with parents rite? but i didnt, instead i wen out n came home LATE as usual. =(
my dad wanted to talk abt it, but i didnt go home.
today, meet saiful at outram, than later meet kenny n theodore at cityhall, than meet xavier at marina square during lunch than meet gavin and sean at HMV, cityhall than meet kar wei at cityhall mrt. than we walk to Minds Cafe. Opposite paradiz. than meet bryant half way in game n dinner. we reached ther 7.25pm, 2hrs stay, end at 9.25pm. i told my dad i be home at 9pm. so 9.30 i left in a rush, i saw 190, n ran after the bus. ended up at outram park. WTF! it was 10pm. i say i go home at 1030pm. i wanted to take taxi. all the taxi was hired. i was fucking pissed. i continue walking downwards. ended up at chinatown, 190 was coming. tis time correct side. ran for the bus. got it. reached home 11+pm. my dad was asleep.

dam. he was not happy at all, he always scold my mum bcz i always come home late. its always my fault tt i go home late.
i dun feel like going out anymore already. now my life is worst than trash. all my friends are in a secured education except Jag.
why didnt i do well for my o levels. why mus i suffer tis fate. sometimes i wish i was not born at all. some adivce me dunt repeat, some advice repeat. i dun wan repeat. but if i go to MDIS, wad will i do in my future. i hate my life. if acs barker dun wan me, i cant apply private O's bcz its closed. today, wednesday i will be going back to skool to inquire. i wonder how im going to talk with a bad sore throat.

people think their life sucks, ha. i wonder wd is worst than my situation... wher did i go wrong? did i not study enuff. mayb i shud devote all the time i had to studying. maybe now i would not be crying over my fucked life. Is there no one who can help me??

im just a useless piece of trash who always disappoint people.. i dun deserve to be alive. well, i would like to con-grate Jag for making me cry for many days after a very long. Thanks Jag, Thanks.

I dun care if u read this or not. i jus felt like posting it. I am still crying and i just wish i could stop crying wen a poly calls me up n ask me join them. if that does not happen, i am going to cry every time.